Should I have stayed married?

I often ask myself this question. Dating sometimes sucks. But then again it can also be fun to get out and meet new people.

However I still find myself asking this question.  Earlier this week I found out that my ex husband is moving out of his house with his now (or soon will be) ex girlfriend. He asked if he could stay with me for a little while until he finds a place. There was a quick moment when the question of "should I have stayed married?" crossed my mind then. I don't think this question would have crossed my mind if this whole Jorge situation didn't come up. Even though it crossed my mind I came to realize really fast that it wouldn't be better. My ex and I are in a good place right now so why change it. I don't think either one of us has changed the way the other person would want. So why end up in the same situation I was in before.

I did some thinking and talking/seeing Jorge over the past week. I have come to realize that we are just in two different places right now in our lives. He wants someone who is a friend, FWB, and someone he is seeing. But at the same time he doesn't want to see other people. He said that he would try to make me a priority. But like I told him I will believe it when I see it. If you really like someone I would think that making them a priority would come easy and you wouldn't have to make an attempt. Because you would actually want to see that other person. When I saw him during the week it hit me like a ton of bricks. He was telling me how he enjoys spending time with me but he made a promise to himself. And after hearing it I understand more where he is coming from. But when he was talking about the future I wasn't in there at all. And it hurt. But like I said it hit me like a ton of bricks. Its not fair to me to wait around for him and not see other people if he doesn't want to take the next step. I am not ready to cut him out of my life all together yet either. I do like him and do care for him and I still want to see him from time to time. I just know that I need to keep my distance a little also and not get further investered with feelings. I know myself and I know what mind set I need to be in and I have done it before so I think I can do it again.

Last week I meet this guy Tony when I went out with my cousins. I meet up with him last night with a couple of his friends. His friends were a little tipsy when I got there. There was a guy outside smoking when I walked up to the door. He asked if I was going in and I said yes. He then asked if I wanted a shot. For anyone that knows me knows that 1) I don't turn down shots. Especially if its free and 2) I am nice and like meeting new people. Sometimes its better to be nice to people then rude. He asked if I was there with anyone and I told him I was meeting my friend. As we walk to the bar I see Tony. Turns out they are friends. Who would have guessed. I had a great time hanging out with them. But I wouldn't mind getting to know Tony when its just him and I.